//Confession: I have wandering eye syndrome.
Don’t get me wrong, my eyes are firmly planted on my sweet boyfriend. He’s amazing. It’s not that kind of condition. This is a condition that goes deeper than that. On Sunday I listened to Pastor Noble shed light on the Israelites cyclical sin patterns, that often began with an eye that desired more. Whether it was building false gods, jumping to conclusions, wishing to be like the other tribes and towns, or complaining, it shouldn’t shock anyone they wandered in the desert for 40 years.
Here’s what dawned on me; I am an Isrealite. I am one of those wandering souls in the desert constantly coveting and wishing I could just get to the mirage of the “good” life ahead. That’s the thing about the wandering eyes… they lead to wandering hearts; they cultivate idolatry. Don’t think of it like the gold statue kind of stuff, I’m talking adoration. Matt Chandler says, “Whatever is uppermost in your affections is your god and will shape every other aspect of your life”.
Wandering eye syndrome for me exists in so many areas: career, possessions, wishing I was elsewhere, or that I could be like so-and-so. Why do they get that and I don’t. I, much like the Israelites, find myself in cyclical patterns of desire that lead to deserts.
“The comparison game will erode your soul. If you cannot find complete contentment in the Lord and reject that provision, you may be in danger of stepping in front of God who is calling you to follow.”
Pastor Noble’s words echo in my mind. Erode your soul. Yikes. And yet it’s so true. I try to fix problems and control scenarios, stepping out of God’s provision and into hardship. I push things to happen before God’s time and they fall apart. I put my health, wealth, and happiness first and come up short. God wants to be the sole recipient of my affections, the director of my steps. He wants lead me into the fulfillment of my destiny.
The only cure? Stop wasting time chasing mirages and follow Him into the promise land//